Mother Nature's Gift

It's that time of the month again. Yes. THAT time of the month. Yup, i know you girls feel my pain. I was at work, and 4 hours into work i started having awful awful awful cramps! My knees became weak, i was breaking out in cold sweat, i couldn't stand straight and came to the point where i was rolled up into a ball for nearly 2.5 hours. No one was able to drive me home at the time, and i stayed on the chair in fetal position for literally that long. I've never had such painful cramps in such a long time, and i just had to forget my advil today :(
Thank goodness the boyfriend was super sweet, he took the subway all the way home from downtown just to go home and get his car to drive me home. Though he wasted an hour doing that, he was suuuuuper sweet today and i am sooooooo lucky to have him <3


Vomit all you want guys! I am still in awe! LOL

Grey Hairs

I found ONE lone strand of grey hair today:(
That's the second one i found since last year! So i quickly yanked it out to get rid of evidence!
I don't like it that i'm 24 and i'm already getting grey hairs :( I see a lot of guys my age with grays but never a girl!
Such sadness :(

Warning: Venting ahead...

I'm feeling rather down. That feeling where you are pushed into a corner and you don't know which direction to go or what to do or where to go. It's suffocating. It's a big world out there and i'm at a stand still. It seems everyone is living their life to the fullest, and here i am not knowing what to do with my life, not enjoying it and feeling miserable about it.
What i really need is a vacation. Away from all this stress i feel. I mean, when's the last time i went on a vacation...2 years ago on a 8 day cruise to the Bahamas.
Eight days, i mean can you even call that a full vacation? Eight days in two years! FML!
I feel like all i'm doing is work work work work work! Family went on two trips without me last year all because i couldn't book off. This Summer? Nothing planned! Nothing! Am i the only one whose wasting all this lovely warm weather that is to come?
Why don't i go with friends? Hey, if i still had friends that i was really close with, why not! And even if i can gather a few now, they don't have the time.
Boyfriend? is busy.
Go myself? Well i guess that's the only option isn't it? What's a good place i can go that i can enjoy myself? Where do i even start?
I'm sorry for all that read my blog. I just feel really stressed to the point where i can just burst out in tears. 3 hours of sleep the night before didn't help much too.

What do YOU do when you're stressed?