Sometimes Life gives you little reminders that you don't deserve a lot of things and that things will always be as unfair as you make it out to be.
When you see other people's seemingly perfect lives, it's just a reminder to yourself of how much you screwed up yours to make it as it is today.

Warning: Venting ahead...

I'm feeling rather down. That feeling where you are pushed into a corner and you don't know which direction to go or what to do or where to go. It's suffocating. It's a big world out there and i'm at a stand still. It seems everyone is living their life to the fullest, and here i am not knowing what to do with my life, not enjoying it and feeling miserable about it.
What i really need is a vacation. Away from all this stress i feel. I mean, when's the last time i went on a vacation...2 years ago on a 8 day cruise to the Bahamas.
Eight days, i mean can you even call that a full vacation? Eight days in two years! FML!
I feel like all i'm doing is work work work work work! Family went on two trips without me last year all because i couldn't book off. This Summer? Nothing planned! Nothing! Am i the only one whose wasting all this lovely warm weather that is to come?
Why don't i go with friends? Hey, if i still had friends that i was really close with, why not! And even if i can gather a few now, they don't have the time.
Boyfriend? is busy.
Go myself? Well i guess that's the only option isn't it? What's a good place i can go that i can enjoy myself? Where do i even start?
I'm sorry for all that read my blog. I just feel really stressed to the point where i can just burst out in tears. 3 hours of sleep the night before didn't help much too.

What do YOU do when you're stressed?